wednesday.  my night for dinner.  i was probably just being sensitive, but instructions were given to me impatiently.  i was feeling foolish for being incompetent when it comes to cooking chicken.  i remarked that i thought i had cooked too little on top of all my other mistakes.  paige answered, "it's best not to have too much meat anyway."  replacing self confidence where all was lost.  this is why she is my best friend.

i defensively asked the reason behind his laughter.  

and he told me he had never known someone to stop mid-sentence and sing. 

Public Humiliation

My Humanities class was a waste of money.  And frankly, it is boring.  I have slept through it two straight weeks in a row.  Today, the professor pointed me out and counseled me to get more sleep in front of the entire class.  Was I embarrassed?  Not in the slightest.  Part of it was the grogginess.  But I thought it obvious that the girl clad in a hoodie and ponytail really payed no mind to the opinion of her peers.

Cowardess

there i was.  no longer numb to my emotions and that ongoing, ever so slight ache in my stomach that hasnt left for at least a week.  the water works kicked on as i vocalized my thoughts and faced the truth with some helpful advice.  and then, i was offered an out.  and so, i made a run for it.  like a coward.  only telling one person so that no one would fear i had been abducted.  here i come weekend of emotional recovery, perspective, and people of an age other than my own.

Between my two exams I treated myself to an Asiago bagel.  And as I sat there eating and enjoying Regina singing to me in the background I overheard some foolish man say that Meg Ryan is the worst actress ever.  It took a great amount of self-discipline to keep me from punching his lights out.